Episode 239: Healing Through Vulnerability: Lessons from my Joshua Tree Retreat

Hey, Amy Robeson here. Thank you for joining me on this podcast where we talk about spirituality, the awakening process, mental health, and so much more. Join me weekly to get your weekly dose of spirituality and medicine. I look forward to seeing you on the inside. Hello, and welcome to today’s episode. I’m so excited you are here. Recently, I had the most beautiful opportunity to host an intimate retreat. First off, if you don’t know, I host two retreats a year. One’s a bigger retreat for our Sacred Awakening, Akashic Records students. And then we host a smaller one that’s no more than 15 people, 16 people max. And I love both of these retreats. Hosting retreats, being in person with people is one of the reasons why I wanted to start my business. I think it’s important to be in person with community. I also think it’s amazing that we can connect over the computer, over the internet, and we’re connected all around the world. This is how we grid the world with our presence, with our expertise, with our knowledge, with our friendship, with our hearts. Our Sacred Awakening community is amazing. So at the end of May, I have the opportunity to host our Elevate Retreat.

And this year’s theme was all about elevation, meaning to elevate to the next level. And all of the students there are Sacred Awakening students. And I always love doing a recap for our retreats because I have some really big takeaways that I always like to share with you guys. And one of the big takeaways is that vulnerability is so important when it comes to our healing journey and path. If you really, really want to heal something super deep, there is this invitation to be vulnerable. Vulnerable may be sharing a story you’ve never shared with someone. Vulnerable may be admitting that you were wrong or admitting that you require help, you need assistance. Vulnerability could also be doing something you swore you would never do, but the invitation there is to heal, and so you can do it. And I think that when we look at vulnerability, sometimes it can feel like it’s out of reach, or it can feel like it’s really hard to obtain, or you could feel like you’re doing it, but you’re not really doing it. And I think when we’re in these settings where we get to be around like-minded people and you feel safe.

This is the key word, right? Is safe. You feel safe. You feel that you are in a safe space to share, you can really be vulnerable. And everybody there at this retreat, it was just amazing to witness the vulnerability and to participate in being vulnerable as well. And so if you’re on your healing journey and you have a hard time being vulnerable, can you step into a container where you feel safe or step into a community where that safety is gradually created and When your walls start dissipating, they start crumbling where you feel that you are in a safe space to share. And if you’re noticing that you do have a hard time with vulnerability, allow that to be something that is obtained organically, and also allow your vulnerability to be authentic, meaning don’t share things that are not appropriate for you to share, and also only share things that you’re guided to share or you’re feeling compelled to share. Because when you do this, you’re going to crack open something so big. You’re going to give yourself permission to look at old wounds, and you’re going to be able to start healing them in a really deep, deep manner that will blow your mind.

Hey, friend. Did you know that we started a new live Crystal Show? It’s called Crystal and Light Codes with Amy, and it’s every Thursday. You can check out my website for more information, and you can get beautiful crystals that have been activated and attuned in a very special way all through the Akashic records that are waiting and ready to work with you. They’re all high vibrational crystals, and each time you buy a new type of crystal, You will get a light language activation that’s included with your purchase as my gift to you. Check out the link in the show notes and show description. The show is every Thursday, unless I’m traveling. Sometimes I have to travel, and then we’ll switch the show. All right, my friends, let’s jump back into the episode. Another big takeaway is that we all have, and this is not a surprise to me whatsoever, but I think for the retreat itself is there are wounds that come from our childhood that require witnessing, require being talked about. Not all of them, not all wounds from our childhood require being talked about. Sometimes we have these wounds that we can just clear out that there’s not much that needs to be shared, but we can acknowledge them and let them go, right?

But sometimes there are some really deep wounds that require being talked about in many different ways. Our caregivers can be the ones that created those wounds. It could be your mother, it could be your mother figure. It could be your father. It could be your father figure. It could be a step figure. It could be a guardian of some sort. But even the most perfect people create wounds, and sometimes they do it intentionally, and sometimes they do it unintentionally. A wounded person is going to carry those wounds forward, and they did the best that they could do based on what they were shown as well. And so the question always is, is Can you give yourself permission to look at those wounds and give yourself permission to do it in a safe way that allows you to allow those wounds to start being healed? And sometimes it’s a layering process. Sometimes we have to look at them multiple times from multiple different directions because we got to peel back each layer at a time. Sometimes we can look at it and we can and heal them right away. Whatever the case is, those wounds are there for your soul’s evolution.

I’m not saying you deserve to have those wounds, but you have them. And you can allow those wounds to assist you in evolving. You can allow those stories attached to those wounds to start to shift. And I’m not saying to rewrite the story in terms of saying it never happened. What I’m saying is you get to rewire your nervous system around the wounds that you experienced so they’re no longer a trigger for you, so they’re no longer holding you prison. So they’re no longer holding you captive in that prison. And it’s extremely freeing when you have the ability to give yourself permission to go deep into to a wound that was caused by someone that you loved and loved you, or maybe you never felt that love. But regardless, you get to change the script. You get to change the way it’s wired in your body. And it is beautiful because you deserve to evolve from any experience that you experience throughout your lifetime and lifetimes. Another big takeaway that I really was surprised by, that wasn’t necessarily a part of the retreat, but it was, is I’m always guided to go somewhere specific, like very, very specific on where we’re supposed to go, and spirit usually reveals that to me.

So this retreat was done in Joshua tree, California, which in 2018, I moved to the Palm Springs area in California. And so it’s only like 45 minutes away from where I used to live. And I was super excited to go back there. I was super excited to see an old friend. I was super excited to reacquaint myself with the mountains because I did so much healing in the mountains, in the Palm Springs area that I could just feel it in my soul. What I thought was so beautiful is the And the mountains and where I used to live, any time I saw them, I could feel old emotions that I had not processed come to the surface to release. They were like old barrier emotions. They were even experiences that I had while living in the desert. And the mountains were going, We’re so excited to see you. And I was going, I’m so excited to see you, old friend. Because I did so many healings, and I did so much growing when I lived there. And at the time, when I moved there, I was going through a lot of nerve pain issues. And I ended up actually reinjuring my nerves really badly while I was there from some bad advice I got from a physical therapist.

And so I reinjured my nerves, which take over a year to heal when you injure your nerves again. But for me, it was like any of that old sorrow that I had from the physical pain that I was in, I could feel it starting to melt away. And then I was also seeing the spirits of the mountains, like witness where I’m at today and where I was. And so they were painting this beautiful picture of like, I’m so proud of you. And And if you’ve never talked to the mountains and you’ve never talked to nature, it is so alive and it wants to witness you, and it wants to be a part of your journey, and it has so much power to heal. And in those mountains is where I really had the courage to start speaking light language and activating that truth and remembering how much light language was a part of my path when I was a kid and what that looked like and having the courage to do that. And I created a bunch different programs when I was in the desert. And so all of those emotions were percolating to the surface to, one, witness, to let go of, but to also acknowledge everything I accomplished while I was there for the short period of time that I was there, and to actually acknowledge that accomplishment.

Because my life is so different than what it was when I first moved there and the journey that I had while I was there. And I’m in such an amazing place in terms of how my physical body feels, my relationship with my physical body, and how I just physically feel so much better and so much more stronger. And I’m not in constant chronic nerve pain, which is such an amazing thing to see and to witness because for a long time, I felt like I was being electrocuted. And so I don’t feel like that anymore. So to compare and contrast how I felt when I was there, part of my healing journey, how I backtracked on my healing journey, which is not a backtrack. It’s a long way around sometimes. But if you’re in constant pain and you’re having a hard time with constant pain, it can feel maddening. And so when you start feeling and you can witness where you’ve been and where you’re at now, it’s such an amazing thing to experience. And it was something I wasn’t anticipating, and I wasn’t anticipating the emotions that I felt and experienced just looking at the mountains, and not the mountains in Joshua tree, the mountains in Palm Springs, because that’s where I used to live, and it was It’s just so incredible.

Another thing that I want to share about the place that we were is Joshua tree itself. Joshua tree has Joshua trees that are only found in Joshua tree. They’re so galactic. They’re so amazing. They’re super gnarly, and they’re just amazingly familiar. And the first time I experienced Joshua trees was when we lived there, and I thought they had so many Galactic codes in them. And then for us to do ceremony on the land and for us to communicate with these trees was such an honor. It was such an honor. I’m so grateful that we got to do that. And one last thing I want to share is sometimes when… Not sometimes, it’s all the Whenever we connect as a group, in a group of healers, a group of seers, a group of spiritual beings, a group of spiritual beings having a human experience, we have the opportunity to come together because we had a meeting that was a part of our path, and we’re meant to be there at that exact time, and we’re meant to be doing exactly what we’re meant to be doing. And then we get to go bring those experiences out back into the world And it’s so cool to see, to witness, and to be a part of.

And so I’m so grateful that everybody that participated was able to come, and it was incredible. And so if you are a Sacred Awakening student and you want to come to our retreat in September, we’re going to be having that. Otherwise, we’re going to be making the announcement for our Intimate Retreat for 2026, hopefully within a few months. So I hope you’ve enjoyed this episode. Please make sure you like and subscribe and share it with a friend, and I will see you soon. Bye.